Things to accomplish

I wonder why I think too much nowadays?

I regret a lot of things and now i'm slowly recovering from those mistakes. 2008 has been great while my 2007 is really worst maybe because im just starting out in college and money just flies.

I am changing myself, redefining my goals and setting it to a reachable peak.

Im just so excited for the next coming days. Since my family is coming here and my sister will come next, next week. We can talk again. I just missed her. She knows me well I can't hide anything from her and so does she. haha!

I need to plan what I need to do. Especially after my summer classes are over.

1.) to finally enroll my sister in USC.
2.) help her fix her closet.
3.) to reach my goal (secret goal).
4.) find time to relax and bond with my family.
5.) to prepare things for school before leaving Cebu on the 29th.
6.) to deposit money. oh yeah. she's saving. haha

aja!

never better.

Everyday is a new battle, to love it and grab the results I wanted. I don't even know why I am doing this? All I know is that this is for myself and to some people.

Although, I am not making it clear what I am been doing. All the sacrifices I did is worth it. I just need some more and I won't stop until I reach there.

I realize that I have been given enough freedom to push through and whatever some may say, I will not listen and move forward because they don't know how this can change my life and myself.

I declare from this day on. I will not take in whatever I crave and focus on that goal. I don't want to eat my words and just go for it.

I've been hurt a verbally and I won't it happen again. I will be someone I've been longing to be.

It's hard to take in some comments and compliments. You just don't know who to listen.

The only voice I hear, is from a small voice deep within.

May 30 - my dreams will unfold.

gloomy sunday

"Nothing ever beats your own family".

I learn it the hard way. Living here with my relatives in Cebu still makes a lot of difference. There are times when I just don't wanna eat with them in the dinner table. The reason is whenever will look around I'm still alone and nothing will change.

I terribly miss them. It is something I can't explain.
I observed a lot of things here. Even if your relatives it still makes a lot of difference. Deep inside I know what are the things that I need to take in. In no explanation can they take it away from me.

Im not hiding any burdens. For the time will come, they will realize.

flings suck

Weekend!- so what? haha. I haven't really enjoyed most of my time at home here. Stuck in my room and watching my oh-so-favorite channel - lifestyle network. Im just addicted to it.

Gosh. It's been 4 months since i've written a single word in here. Anyway, those months were not really interesting. Let's just say I commited a couple of mistakes and unfortunately hurt few people in the process.

I swear I'm sorry.

They say, it takes time for a person to realize all the things he/she have done. now, i'm guilty.

When I turned 18. I thought I need to start everything right and explore some things I long want to experience. (you guess).
Knowming me, I don't really take things seriously, I tend to play around and when i'm stucked I take it with a tight chokehold around my neck.

The price? nothing really. Just some drama (other people).

I mean. they expect a lot from me. All I know is that I explained to them everything that I could and they need to know. Some human just can't understand simple english. haaaaa. =D

Especially when they say they need time to move on and all of a sudden. we are like literally eating our own words.

I explained everything and being sensitive here is not the way to go.

tayo ba?