I miss the old me terribly. But I am seeing her soon and that this time I am not going back because I will always face the truth this time. It's just sad that I know this is a great help but I was denying what people were saying.
I am not going to let myself down this time.
When I look back on everything that has happen, I did not regret any single experience because the lesson that I gained was so much more than the hurting process.
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I heard my grandma telling my aunt about the funny situation her daughter said after she saw me crying about 3 days ago. Everything just sinked in right now. She knocked at my door last night and of course she listened to me and said that she's just a text away.
I texted her around 1 AM it seems like I want to talk to her. (for the first time) but as she promised she didn't replied and we saw each other around 4pm and told me that she was asleep. To think she did not even text me or anything and now she is trying to gain my trust. NO WAY!
During our conversation she said that I should not listen to everything that people are saying which is true because I take in whatever people are saying most of the time. I should not be pressured or anything about my parents and all. She knows what is the main reason why my mom scolded me.
To be honest, I trust my mother. It always happen that at first it seems like her decisions are unreasonable but in the end it is all worth it. I should always pay attention to her because she was always right.
To my aunt. I know your intentions. Sorry but this conceited bitch you were referring is not going to let herself down again this time. For once, don't be a hypocrite! The next time your going to see me I am sure you'll hate me more.
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